Friendship, Happy, Self discovery



A year filled with many blessings but overshadowed by the loss of a beloved sister. We communicated regularly but in her last few weeks on a daily basis until the day she vanished from existence.

I’ve not spoken much about her passing. I’m stuck with memories playing out like dreams; they once were a reality but now my reality has changed because I live in a reality where we will never meet or speak again. All that is left are old messages that still bring tears to my eyes. It’s been 5 months since the world lost Mas. I’ve moved forward with my life but 5 months later, I still carry the pain of the reality that she is gone.

Our plans ceased; there was no more reunion, no more Bali 2018, everything faded.



My reflection of 2018 has brought to surface many childhood dreams that I have been sitting on for a long time. I’ve always had a vision to be the change within my community and the voice of the forgotten. I aspire to inspire you to follow through with your goals in this coming year. Your time on this earth is limited, more so than we realise till it’s too late, and the opportunities that today may present you may not be there tomorrow. There is no guarantee that you will be here tomorrow, we are here for as long as the Lord wills it.

It is by the grace of God that I am where I am today. People have tried to dictate my life; they’ve tried to tell me what I am capable of and what is just beyond me and not for me. Regardless, I am in the position I am in today because I have constantly refused to conform to the standard others have set for me.

In 2011 my high school teacher told me I wasn’t smart enough for law, she failed to acknowledge that I dictate what I am capable of.  She never imagined that by 2018, I would have come so far that I would be employed by an international law firm. I am where I am because I have believed I can do anything, I have constantly spoken words of affirmation to myself and I carried myself to the next stage, building myself for the next step.

The thoughts that you have will influence your actions, how you describe and react to your life will become your reality. If you are relying on others to believe in you, then you will remain stagnant in the position you are in while your opportunities pass you by. The criticism will always be loud and the applaud will always be whispered. 

Believe in yourself and know your capabilities. You are capable of anything, the ideas and dreams you have, came to you for a reason, follow them through. If you don’t take action, there will be no outcome. What does the heart desire? Look at your goals and dreams, you are the captain of your ship, God is your compass and it’s time you set sail.


There was suffering during this year but there was also victory. In 2017 the foundations were set in place and in 2018, I began to build. Despite the loss and suffering of this year,I have found new friendships, a church I can call home, a beautiful house and a new job. God has truly moved me and prepared me for the coming year.

The year 2019 will bring you opportunities and when they come, set sail. Chase after your dreams and goals. You may not be here tomorrow, and you may not get a second chance. Don’t sail blindly, be guided by the compass that will illuminate your way.


2 thoughts on “2018”

  1. Thank you for this blog it has really opened my eyes about the way we set our mind and goals onto something. Not just sitting and thing about it, but making it happen and letting the dream turn into a reality, you show that we are not alone in this, and that we can all make it in what ever we set our minds on. Happy to call you a big role model in my life brother keep doing your thing you have a lot of people who care for you, love you, and will do anything to help you grow which is why you will never fail God bless and Happy New Year.


  2. Heart Touching! You are a very brave soul ! Hope for lots and lots of success along your way. Your Sister and Aunty are very proud of you 🙂 they will always be there in your heart 🙂 you remembering them is keeping them alive in your thoughts 🙂 don’t ever be upset. It’s the natural of life that we don’t have control of. I can surely say they are proud of you and they will always be with you in your memories 🙂 Good Luck, Congratulations and make this New Year a Happy One 🙂


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