As of today, It has been 3 months since I started writing.
When I first started I saw it as an escapism, a way of releasing everything and not enduring it alone. I started writing because I knew a lot of people could relate to what I had been through but had no way of expressing it because of the fear that no one would understand or the fear of being judged.
I knew I wasn’t the only one who had walked through a lonely narrow path, surrounded by people who’s intentions you questioned. One moment you appear to be walking through this path with people sharing a common goal, yet the moment you turn around you seem to be alone.
Putting up a facade had become a norm, you appeared to be happy but the truth is you were on a rapid decline. Your anxiety had become high and you had finally hit a low.
For so long I hid behind the walls I built, but it was time to put them down and open up.
When I published my first blog, I had put my life on show. I invited vulnerability into my life but I wasn’t sure how to deal with it. The truth is I was afraid of how people would perceive me, once I saw how many people had read my blog in the first 24 hours I became anxious, I questioned whether I had made a mistake and debated on whether to delete the blog post.
I had spent so long living a private life that putting my life on display was foreign territory to me.
To my surprise, my blog posts have not only achieved their intended goal of reaching out and connecting with the ones who suffer in silence, the ones without the words to express their thoughts and the ones who are held hostage and tormented by their own thoughts. These blog posts have surpassed their intended goal beyond my own expectations.
It was as though a door had been opened, friends and stranger walked through this door and spoke of how they could relate, spoke of their experience and challenges that stood before them.
This door has not only given me the platform and opportunity to help others but it has allowed us to share a common suffering and assist one another in our journey of growth.
This platform has allowed for some of my friendships to grow and for others to cease. 3 months ago I was in a place of uncertainty, a place of isolation and fear. 3 months on, I have forged new friendships, brothers and sisters who I confide in during troubling times. I have seen my faith rise from the ashes it once lied within. Bringing down the walls I had built allowed for vulnerability to infiltrate. The infiltration of vulnerability has allowed me to analyse every aspect of my life and eliminate the task of putting up a facade.
I have enjoyed sharing my life experiences with all my readers and I am grateful to those who contacted me and shared their experience and hardship. It was a true journey going through and overcoming the challenges together.
Today I have decided to take a break from blog writing and focus on my last stage of Law School.
I leave you with this, take courage and begin to write, break down the walls around you and let your words strengthen you. It is your words that will be honest with you and you with them.